Monday, May 23, 2016

Good Good Father

I've heard a thousand stories of what they think you're like. But I've heard the tender whisper of love in the dead of night. And you tell me that you're pleased and that I'm never alone.

You're a good good father, it's who you are, it's who you are, it's who you are. And I'm loved by you, it's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am.

I've seen many searching for answers far and wide. But I know we're all searching for answers only you provide. Cause you know just what we need before we say a word.

You're a good good father, it's who you are, it's who you are, it's who you are. And I'm loved by you, it's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am.

You are perfect in all of your ways. You are perfect in all of your ways. You are perfect in all of your ways to us.

Love so undeniable I, I can hardly speak. And peace so unexplainable I, I can hardly think. As you call me deeper still, yes you call me deeper still, oh you call me deeper still, into love, love love.

You're a good good father, it's who you are, it's who you are, it's who you are. And I'm loved by you, it's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am.

You are perfect in all of your ways. You are perfect in all of your ways. You are perfect in all of your ways to us.


We sang this song in service on Saturday, and I couldn't think of a better way to share what God has been doing in my heart recently. Many times when I'm sad or really miss home, I feel guilty about it and just try so hard to not feel that way. But every time I have gone to God, instead of coming down on me for feeling the way I do, He holds His arms wide open and comforts me. Over and over He has given me exactly what my heart needed. He understands how I feel, and He isn't mad at me for it. He just wants me to come to Him, so He can comfort me and give me the strength I need. In the midst of sadness, He provides a deep joy that is not my own. Feeling sad and being joyful at the same time is not something I had experienced before coming here, but now I have. It is really amazing how God can fill us with joy, no matter what we are going through and no matter what we are feeling. I have been at the very end of myself so many times this trip, and He always carries me through. He is always faithful, and provides everything I need. He has blessed me in so many ways. Every day I understand more of His unfathomable love for me. He holds my heart so close to Him, and He takes such good care of me. 

I now have exactly 40 days until my plane lands in Detroit. I can't believe May is almost over, and already as I look back on the last five months I'm amazed by everything God has done. As much as I'm ready to be home, I'm also excited to see what God has in store for this last month. 

I know I can't do this on my own, but He is a good good father. And He is answering your prayers. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for praying for me. Please continue to pray that I will live in the moment this last month, and that I will take advantage of each day I have left here. 




Monday, May 2, 2016

Together



I recently watched the Avengers and was struck by so much truth that was building on a major thing God has been teaching me, which is UNITY. In the first Avengers, Loki comes in and lets himself be captured, so that he can get on the inside and get them all to go against themselves and tear each other apart. They are all so different. They have different strengths and weaknesses, different opinions on some pretty major things, different personalities, and Loki was using all of that to turn them against each other. He knew that if they were divided, they would fall apart. But then...they are faced with a battle for which they desperately need each other. After realizing and overcoming what Loki was trying to do, they forgot their differences and focused on the mission: saving the earth. When they finally come together and fight their enemies in harmony and with one goal, it is a beautiful thing. There is one particular scene when they are all rising up to the plate and preparing to battle, and it gave me chills. They face Loki and his army as a team - as one unit working together, using all of their strengths. They gain victory when they are united. They are so committed to their cause that they are willing to die for it, and for each other.

So now onto what God has been teaching me...The last few months I have been reading through the New Testament, and this time through I have noticed how much Jesus, Paul, and all the other writers, talk about our relationships with other believers. Here is part of Jesus' prayer in John 17:20-23:

“My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them as you loved me.” John 17:20-23

He prayed for all of us believers to be unified, so the world would believe. He could have prayed for so many things, but He chose unity. He knows how important it is, and so does our enemy. Satan is always looking for ways to tear us apart and bring divisions between us as a body of Christ. He knows how powerful we can be when we are united, so he wants to make sure that doesn't happen. Life is full of interactions with people, and how we interact as the body of Christ has such an impact on the world. Paul knew that, and focuses so much on unity and on loving each other:

“I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.” 1 Corinthians 1:10

“Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.” -Ephesians 4:2-3

“The entire law is summed up in a single command: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' If you keep on biting and devouring each other, watch out or you will be destroyed by each other.” Galatians 5:14-15

I could go on and on with scriptures talking about this. The point is, unity is so important. So, how do we achieve this unity? Do we just try harder to be nice to each other? As I was reading through the New Testament, and realizing all this, I was starting to get frustrated with the church. I was thinking, “Why can't people just love each other?” It was all about “them”. And then God hit me with this verse:

“But if we walk in the light as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.” 1 John 1:7

It's not about “them”. It's about my relationship with God. If we walk in the light, with God, we will have fellowship with each other. First and foremost, it's about my own relationship with God. I need to start with the man in the mirror and work on myself, and that will lead to unity with other believers. I can't love others if I don't love God. The next one that God hit me with was 1 John 2:9:

“Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates his brother is still in the darkness.”

Wow. Talk about being convicted. It's not saying that we have to love people in order to be “qualified” to walk in the light, but rather, our love for people is evidence that we are in the light. So here I was pointing my finger at everyone else, and God turned it right back around and pointed it at me. I need to focus on my relationship with HIM. I need to be constantly filling myself with His love, so that I can pour it out onto others.

I want to be more aware of the dividing tactics of the enemy. I can't fight a battle if I don't know it's taking place. I need to fall in love with God more every day so that I can love others. Satan attacks our relationship with God because he knows God is the only one who can fulfill us and he doesn't want that. He comes to steal, kill, and destroy. He knows true joy is found in God alone. He is the father of lies and convinces us that that isn't true. But I've realized that there is another reason why He attacks our relationship with God: he knows it directly influences our relationships with our brothers and sisters. He is constantly building walls between us and bringing division. I want to put him in his place. I want to claim victory in Jesus! I want to make God my absolute top priority. I want to be digging into His word and continually be in prayer, and it's no wonder that it's such a battle to do that. Satan knows everything hinges on my relationship with God.

It seems impossible sometimes to have unity. We are so different. How could God take all of us, and create something beautiful? How could I possibly love the people who just simply annoy me? How can we have true unity with each other, when we have such different backgrounds, personalities, and opinions? The answer is we can't. We aren't capable of achieving this unity. BUT....God. I am so thankful for all the “but God”s in the Bible. We have the power of the Holy Spirit living in us. We have something that can connect us in a way that is deeper than anything in the whole world.

“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7

Being here in Uganda has opened my eyes to the unity that is possible in Him. I'm best friends with people who were complete strangers only four months ago. I already feel at home in a church that is so different from what I know and am used to. I'm in a class with 60 other people who are all from different backgrounds. We have our disagreements and issues, but when it comes down to it, they are my brothers and sisters, and God is teaching me how to love each of them for who they are. I have to constantly ask Him for help, because I run out of my own love so quickly. If I'm not filled with Him, I am simply not the person I want to be. That is why I am also learning the importance of spending time with Him every single day. My relationship with God directly affects every other part of life.

The bottom line is, we are called to love God, and love people...And if we ask Him, He will provide what we need to do just that.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:34-35