Wow, is it really that close already? Time has flown by so quickly the last few months. There have been so many waves of emotions leading up to this journey. As it gets closer, I continue to get more excited, but also more sad about leaving. It's difficult to describe, but I often feel both at the same time. I know God has plans up His sleeve for while I'm gone, but He has also been teaching me so much in these last few months as well. I have felt closer to Him than ever before and have felt a connection with Him that is just wonderful! One emotion that I have barely felt at all is fear and I am so thankful for that! God has been so good about helping me trust Him completely. One of the "theme songs" for my trip is Oceans, by Hillsong. That song is one of the reasons why I felt like I was supposed to do this trip in the first place. The whole song is so powerful, but the lyrics that influenced this decision the most are these:
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior"
As I was singing these words when the thought of doing this was first developing in my mind, I felt like it was a huge confirmation that I was supposed to go to Uganda. How could I sing something like this, have the thoughts I was having, and not follow through? I was singing something that I was desiring, but really it was more like a commitment that I was going to do what He was calling me to do.
I thought the "where my trust is without borders" part would come true once I got to Uganda, but it has been applied even while I'm still here. I feel like I have an abnormal amount of trust in His plan, His provision, and His protection, and I know that it is only through His strength, and because of many prayers that I have been able to have it. I would definitely say at this point that my trust is without borders! I can't imagine what it will be like once I actually get over there. There is so much uncertainty, so much that is unknown. I don't know what to expect, I don't know so many things! But I can be confident in the fact that God does know, and He has been planning this adventure for me since the beginning of time. So I choose to trust Him and rely on Him to give me all the strength I am going to need while I'm there.
